A happy day

I found some pretty pictures of Mama the day of Jennifer's wedding.  She was very very smiley that day. :-)

Maggie Update

Maggie Super-Star: Spotted after bath-time, and sporting fabulous vintage aviatoresque sunglasses. 

And only a few moments before Maggie had enjoyed a wonderful bath in her Aunt Sarah's sink. 

I like lists.

1. The new statistic on the demographics of AIDs in the United States and the attention surrounding it really bothers me for some reason. It's difficult to explain without sounding like a terrible person. But my topic of the day to research at work involves looking up the 2000 Census, population demographics, AIDs demographics, AIDs coverage in the media, and other facts and tidbits. Why am I doing this? Because I want to be educated on the situation instead of making an emotional, rash decision based on the media coverage of the most recent study.

2. I'm starting the book "My Sister's Keeper" by Jodi Picoult. I know it's pretty old, but this is my first time reading it and I'm pretty excited about it. Reading will commence at approximately 1:00 when I take my lunch break.

3. Maggie is the cutest human ever. I'm not sure if I've stated that enough in this blog.

4. I love linen. I'm wearing a linen dress today and it's the most comfortable outfit I've worn in a long time. You would think that since I've lived in the South my whole life I would've really learned to appreciate the true value of linen in this heat...I guess some people learn more slowly than others. But back to my outfit...I'm a little disappointed in myself, it could've been so much more interesting. My ability to accessorize kind of sucks lately. Something to work on.

5. Going to see the band Secondhand Serenade with the ladies tomorrow. Honestly, I haven't listened to much, if any, of their music. But Koti says they're fantastic :-). Also, one of the bands playing with them is PlayRadioPlay!. They're kind of too indie/Post-Postal Service to function, but, I still like a few of they're songs. Should be a good time, and worth getting minimal sleep on a weeknight (yes I'm an old lady who loves her sleep).

6. I'm very happy about Sarah and Bobby's "Opportunity for Success" (even though I'm not supposed to be...ha).

7. The theory known as global warming and its side effects are DEFINITELY some sort of conspiracy created by collaborative environmentalists everywhere.... Right. Ok.

8. I start sewing lessons with Jennifer tonight. I'm pretty excited. :-) Hooray!

hello and goodbye!

Short list:

1. Went to the doctor today and she didn't seem overly concerned about anything.  They did do a biopsy as a "precaution" and the results will be back in on Tuesday or Wednesday of next week.  More than likely it will be a "followup in six months" sort of thing.  At least I'm hoping that's what'll happen. :-)

2. The ship to VA is leaving in approx. 30ish minutes.  It should be interesting.  Five people: Tom, Jennifer, Sarah, me, oh and the small screamer named Maggie (who probably won't be that terrible to ride with...I hope) will all cram in to Sarah and Bobby's Honda for the next 6 to 7 hrs (that's factoring in Maggie-stops, bathroom stops, birthday gift pick-up stops, etc.).  Hopefully we'll make there by 9, because Grandma is cooking Hungarian cabbage rolls (yummmm). 

3. I am officially the oldest (almost) 21 year old I know.  I hung out with the girls last night and we went back to Karee's house to wait for our plans to be finalized.  Well, I found myself in a hour-long conversation with her dad about speculation with oil and what the governments going to do about it.  Then, we went to the actual party and I spent most of my time being the awkward girl in the corner.  Nice.  Seriously though, I always love hanging out with my three loverlies.  We had fantastic dinner, and had a moving dance party while I DJed as we rode from place to place.  Good times. Love them. :-)

4. No more blog updates until I get back from VA.  I think that probably makes me sad more than anybody else. Tehe. 

A list for starters...

Everybody has lows and highs right? But what happens when your lows get so ridiculously low that you can't even seen the beginning of a high?  Well, I'm kind of in that spot right now where it seems impossible to see beyond the suck. So, I decided to list things that I like and that make me happy, no matter how frivolous, superficial, or trivial they may be:

1. New Season of Project Runway (okay so that shouldn't be number one, but I was just watching TV and saw the preview for tonight's show... tehe)

2. My painted ladder that is doubling as my shoe rack...still a work in progress, but I like it.

3. Sarah and Bobby

3. Maggie

5. Jennifer and Tom

4. Daddy (and his super cool sister, aka, Aunt Gin)

 5. California

6. Mama, even though she's not here anymore, I still had/have the most amazing mother in the world.

7. Turner Classic Movie channel (Watching The Apartment with young Shirley MacLaine and Jack Lemmon)

8. Orange and pink Dunkin Donuts straws.  They make me happy.

8. Oscar and Kobe, even though I find random doggie hairs my dresses in the closet that I haven't worn in 3 months. 

Okay, so that's the beginning of my list.  I am saying "Yes, Please" to good things and hopefully they'll stay around... or at least the good mood brought on by good things.

Here's to my stupid blog... (and the slight disaster it has become)

So I would like everyone to know that I hate my blog lately.  Hate it.   And you're probably asking, "why the hell do you do it?" and my answer is, "I don't effing know."

I started doing this blog because I wanted an outlet for all of my thoughts...and then I made the decision that I was "fine" now and started blogging about stupid crap that I still like, but ultimately - doesn't matter (aka. Fashion, or that stupid 7 tips to save at the grocery store thing - Wtf? Why would I put something like that on my blog, I'm not a desperate housewife thanks!) 

Ending consensus: I feel like I'm not being honest.  I see Sarah's blog and she's so honest, but in that cynical, dark humor sort of way, so it's still enjoyable.  And even Jennifer came out with a post that was brutally honest (and a little on the heartbreaking side), on a blog that she has declared as a Maggie-subject blog only!  I come across other blogs too that are truthful as well, but: they're whiney and simper-y (and as I declared in my post about Project Runway Season 5 Episode 1 ...which does matter haha... I detest simper-y people).

I don't want to be whiney or simper-y, but I do want to be honest.  I think the main reason behind that is that people that I care about can read this (my whole 2, or maybe 4, dedicated blog readers).  I have a hard time verbalizing what say, and I hate wasting time sitting around and "talking about it."  So, if I just post it on here, they can read it, know what I'm actually feeling and then go from there.  Wow. Hasn't this age of technological wonder made our emotions and thoughts so much more accessible, and in such a time efficient way!  Ladies and gentleman, there we have it...I am using my blog to avoid human-to-human conversations about my feelings. Ta daaaaah! 

Wow...talk about a stream of consciousness/thought process spilled out on a page...

So here is my new little pledge, mantra, whatever:  I will start being honest on this page.  I may change the names, the places, or any facts that I chose.  But ultimately, it will be honest. 

No more of this bullshit I've been posting... unless of course, its a frivolous thing that I honestly like.  For example, I do care about fashion, music, and sometimes stupid grocery shopping tips...but that's not me all the time.  

So here's to honesty.  Let's make it work.

And on that note, I'm off to ride my bike. Which is finally fixed. Wahooo!

rant #589720198751

Wow my blog is turning into an all out bitch-fest. yay.

So I was super disappointed today because my bike is still not fixed. It was supposed to be fixed but they ordered the part and it didn't fit, so now they're having to go through the manufacturer to get the part...Which entails weekend mail, and finally me not getting my bike until Wednesday. I mean, I walked into the bike shop preparing to be super mad customer (not really, because I'm not good at that, and plus I've worked/work in customer service and know how irritating that is) and walked out just feeling frustrated because it's not their fault at all. I'm very sad...not really, but you know...

Anyway so that's about the highlight of my day.

Besides the fact that I'm about to take a nap. For some reason I always reserve my naps for Friday evenings when I get home from work. It's kind of like my, "Good Job Susanna, you made it through another work week, you get a nap." Wow, maybe that's a little pathetic...Naps for Work, naps for work. Ugh. I definitely need to think of a better perk for myself...oh wait, I bought two pairs of uber cute shoes. Which are still sitting in my Jeep because I don't want to admit to Sarah that I not only broke my budget for the past two weeks, I destroyed it. But now I guess she knows because she reads this blog. Oops.

Oh well...

So now i'm going to take a nap on this fabulous, bike-less, non-plan filled Friday evening. And when I wake up I get to go to family dinner with Jennifer and Sarah feuding. Maybe I'm not supposed to write about other people's feud, but they are, they're feuding, so it should be a high emotion highly entertaining (HA. maybe for reality TV, car crash stalkers) night.

Okay serious, Nap time....

playing in the sprinklers

a nap to save the day

Somewhere between the time i left work and the time i got home had a complete crash and ended up putting on pjs and going to bed.

Cancelled therapy, skipped out on homegroup...everything.

I feel bad about home group because I really like all of them... :-(

Other than that I don't feel bad. I really think the nap did me good. I woke up around 8:30ish and Sarah and Bobby were chattering in the kitchen and American Idol was blaring dramatically in the back ground and some sort of tuna concoction was on the stove, a casserole i think? It was yummy. Then Jennifer, Tom and Maggie dropped in, and maggie sat on Sarah's lap and grinned at me with her growing assortment of teeth (she's verging on 3 now...whoaaaa).

I'm glad I slept through my ickyness this time. I know I can't do it all the time, but tonight it was the best thing I could've done. No pretend. No heavy thoughts. Just a little Album Leaf and wonderful sleep.

xoxo

saturday morning

went to Dunkin Donuts this morning with Jennifer and Sarah.
Confused the people behind the counter (not that big of a surprise)
and later enjoyed my "everything" bagel with cream cheese, while sarah and jennifer ate their blueberry muffins and we watched "Elizabeth: the Golden Age" (excellent movie)
What a fantastic Saturday morning (seriously)
and now I'm off to visit Karee at her school (hooray!)

(an empty dining area...because we were holding everyone up at the register. Oh us!)