open to me

christmas 2007.

Mama died September 17th, 2007.

and this is where most of my anger, frustration, sadness, mood-swings, confusion, distaste-for-odd-things, paranoia, obsessions, temper tantrums, break-downs, stubbornness, bad decisions, at times out-of-control, extravogent behavior comes from.

there is no ounce of understanding in my body on this subject, and next to that, for anyone else whose problems seem less important than mine. Some call that selfishness, they would be correct.

And guess what? i don't care.